Yeah, I did.
For there was the restraining act, which made me hurt in my stomach but made me feel alright because I know I did what is right.
And I was so sure it has to start with just one decision: that I don't want this anymore, even if something inside me screams for it that the thought of it always makes me ache.
Yesterday I was so sure about it. So sure that I actually felt free and light in spite of all the rejections of my subconscious. I was sure and there would be no turning back.
Then, I saw you.
And I am back to zero.
But my decision has not changed, and it never will, only that now I know this will be harder.
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