What do you do when you were not able to wake up on time for your 8am (when you check the time, it's already 12 noon) class because you stayed awake until 530am doing a probset?
You recheck the time.
You check your phone and when you see 5 missed calls and many messages asking you where you were, you accept the truth - you missed one laboratory class which is worth a lot.
And then you sit up and cry at the edge of your bed, out of frustration, for not hearing any of the three clocks you set to alarm at 7am - no, you actually remembered snoozing one of them.
I felt bad the whole day because I was so frustrated with myself. And I feel sorry that my negative energies rubbed off on others (thankfully, they were patient enough to understand and even tried cheering me up). This day is one of those days where you have to tell yourself that you suck and then you feel that very strong desire to pick everything up and do all you can to prevent this from happening again.
I suck. In the future maybe I'll suck again, at doing other things. But never again, at this.
